After 64 days I relapsed without porn. 2 days later I relapsed again, without porn. After aother day I thought "some normal porn won't heart. I did 64 days NoFap and I can do it again". I watched one movie, and obviously jerked off. After 2 days I stoped runing or doing yoga, as I did for 70 days. I watched 2 hours of porn in the same day. In the last week I wathced more porn than I spend time doing anything else but sleeping. No morning woods anymore. No spontanus erections. No social relations. I am nervus all the time. I am mad about every thing. Three days ago I realased that I am collapsing and my addiction get stronger than me. So I went to two days In a nature trip with a friend, wher I was sure I won't PMO. I am back again. I will win. I'll be free.
You’ll do it. And I’m with you on the journey. I had a streak of about 7 months, but relapsed not long ago. Failure is where you see how strong you are, and if the first time was a fluke. You just have to get those winning systems back in place and continue as previous. I think of having erecticle dysfunction and not seeking women or having kids. Those fears are a big motivator for me to beat this. Porn feels good in the moment but it does steal your life.
