Hey guys I'm 27 and I'm addicted to porn since 14 years! I realized it around five years ago that I should stop watching porn but since three years I'm really fighting with it - I can tell you this is the hardest fight of my life! I quit school in the age of 18 did and started to work here and there. Also I started drinking smoking and consuming pot... to quit smoking was hard but I did it but just moved my addiction to smoking weed... to make a long story short I was totally f&@ up and nothing worked out anymore. But I realized if I'm not changing my life I won't have a life much longer... I changed my music, I started going to church on every sabbath, I finished my school on nightschool, did more sports and finally found the girl for the rest of my life! Since one year I'm studying medicine and you should think every thing is fine, since over 3 years I haven't smoke one jay, even touched one! Since over 2 years I haven't had single sip of alcohol. I'm getting married next year and I found Jesus in my life ! But there is this one addiction I can't handle! I can't stop watching Porn. I know that I'm addicted to it and I know how bad it is for me but the longest time last year without watching it was 3 month i felt terribly good but then I got a relapse and everything broke down watching porn every single minute, hours for hours just for nothing! And I don't have to tell you how do you feel afterwards I tried it so often and I felt down so hard but I have to get up again and again ! I want to change the last big thing in my life and I need help therefore ! I'm getting focused on my aims in life and I'm always remember how bad porn is for me my body and my brain... I entered this community three days ago and I just wanted to share my story as short as possible with you! I need Hand to hold if I can't controlle myself and I thing I have to talk to someone how is having the same problem I wish you all a blessed weekend, good and clean thoughts
