Started and ended relationship in same no PMO streak.

So I started a nofap streak, my second one and longest streak. 7 days into it I had the guts to talk to a girl I was in to and we hit it off really well. 1 week into it, we got really close. I was very strong with no PMO the whole time and her and I agreed no sex till marriage. We reached our boundaries very quickly. Once we got as far as we would go with each other we got very intimate and I told her things I have never told anyone.

She was accepting of it at first then grew resentful for it. Her father apparently had a porn addiction and ended up hurting her. So 2 weeks into it she said she will still be in a relationship with me but she couldn't trust me being alone with her so she was leaving the decision up to me.

I told her I couldn't be in a relationship with someone that didn't trust me so we ended it right there. I assured myself that I would not end that relationship by PMOing all over the place. I went a few days and then I had a wet dream. I used the wet dream as an excuse to PMO, I don't think it was the relationship ending but that may have had a part.

The weird thing is I had lost some physical attraction towards her after the first week but didn't want to end it so early into not having sex and was also trying to learn how to love not based on looks because she is an amazing person. Needless to say, I allowed her excuse of her past to give me an out. Now I can look for someone who will accept me for who I am, who I will always be attracted to and love being physical but has her boundaries. Thanks for reading my first relationship story in a year and a half.