So, yesterday evening when I opened my account to this website, I felt depressed and I had urges as I am on my 52th day without porn although I masturbated from time to time. Anyway, suddenly as I made the decision to also quit masturbation I started to experience feelings of happiness. I was simply happy for no reason! And I think this is our natural state! Today, in the morning, when I waked up, I felt alive. I felt as if spring had come in my life although there is still winter outside. I was a loner in my fight against porn and I had managed to resist porn for about 45 days without support or reading various websites on the dangers of porn. But then I found this community and I am very happy! I think my brain has finally started to reboot and that's why I feel happy. Yes, porn makes us think that the best feelings we get from watching those videos. That's not true! Healthy happiness can come in your lives if you live in a healthy way.
Yeah I'm fine all the time. Even though it's really fucking dark all the time, like I can see the sun only 3 hours a day and I spend most of my time alone with my thoughts, I'm still happy. Abstaining from masturbation makes my mind strong and builds confidence knowing all the urge battles I've won. Just thinking about that makes me feel victorious no matter what. Every morning I wake up and the quality of life stays the same because I've decided so. Before it used to be a constant fluctuation of happy and down mood, now there's a certain point below which it will never drop.
Great to hear that. Hopefully, you will feel like this forever, as 50 days is still not enough to objectively say how you feel. Moods go down and up over time. A complete reboot can take even 2-3 years. But I wish you happiness.