Something i noticed before i relapse [check pls]

Hello fellow fapstronauts.

I have this weird, should i say habit ? Before i relapse.

So these are some sort of phases before i relapse and that lead to relapsing;
1) I get sleepy - I am very tired out of sudden and then suddenly..
2) My heart starts beating very hard
3) I start breathing very short but quick
4) I start to shake
5) I have this heavy feeling on my head

Eventually then, urges start to hit and i cant seem to focus anymore, its like whole new person gets into me. I noticed, the more i try to resist the urges, its like they hit stronger until eventually i let the leash off and relapse. Come back to reality in a dark room alone feeling crappy.

And mornings after relapse are terrible, i need to sleep more and when i wake up i have feeling like i am a bit hungover or to say it in different way, like i got hit by a train, it takes me few seconds to realize where i am and what i did.