So, Here I am.

Hello. I happened across this site because it was featured on TheChive. Ironic because I was feeling the urge for some visual stimulation, and was trying not to look at porn, and TheChive always has a lot of attractive women plastered all over that site. But, if I'm being honest with myself, it's just a gateway to looking at porn or worse. So, here I am.

I've been masturbating and looking at porn for as long as I can remember; from the age of 12 at the latest. Back in the day, I would get off just waiting for a naked picture of a woman to inch its way pixel by pixel onto the monitor via our 28k modem. Sometimes, just a nipple was enough.

Unfortunately, after nearly two decades of relying on porn and masturbation to fill some hole inside me, pixelated and scantily clad models don't do it anymore. My addiction has led me deeper and deeper, darker and darker, into realms of online pornography and worse. Even just watching videos isn't enough. I'm ashamed and don't yet have the courage to admit everything. But I'm hoping this is a legitimate first step.

I'm going to try for sixty days sans masturbation, edging, pornography, and other sex-related activities online. Wish me luck.