Small Victory

Today I got into a big argument with someone who had done something to me and felt very angry and stressed out. Usually in this situation I would turn to PMO and I had fleeting thoughts of the relaxation I would get from it but instead I tried to just be still and allow the anger to dissipate. It took more than a couple minutes but I felt a bit better. Later I was checking my e-mail and received one from a porn website. I opened it and it had some pictures but my e-mail client didn't load the pictures, I had to click for them to load. I paused for several seconds before clicking, in my mind I was already thinking of past images I had seen and what I might see, and then I forcefully clicked the "delete" button instead and the e-mail disappeared. I very much wanted to look at the images so I feel very good now that I did not and I was able to use the discipline/strength in that moment to persevere. I doubt that it would have gone farther in PMO but I am not interested in those things anymore (that is what I am telling myself anyway). So have to feel good with today so far.