ive been trying for 4 years to lose fat and chase my dreams and ive been trying for 3 years to stop watching porn and i cant go more than 5 days on a streak. Maybe some people just are too fucked up to succeed? Maybe i should just give up and kill myself? I just cant accept this life anymore im sick and tired of being me and ive been trying to change for years but it didnt work so maybe i should just end it all
ive been watching porn all my life ever since i was around 9 years old and since then i watched porn everyday. I also am a smoker and a binge eater and i have no interest in life anymore. None of my friends can help me or are on the same journey. My dating life is none existent and i lost my virginity to a prostitute a year ago. Im very shy and socially awkward i feel like a child in social situations and i feel humiliated. Where the fuck should i start? I cant even stop one bad habit i cant even stick to a diet more than a week anymore i cant do nofap more than 5 days how the fuck am i gonna be a successful normal resourceful productive member of society. How tf am i gonna have a girlfriend or get married or have kids or get a respectable job let alone live my dreams
Everything you described resonates with me so you need to know that you’re not alone in this situation you’re in right now. I’ll to give you a detailed explanation first First of all, you need to understand that what you’re dealing with is an addiction not a bad habit. Our brains have been wired to get dopamine from PMO, the good part of this is that we can rewire our brains to cure this disease Now that’s out of the way, now let’s talk about the dangers of PMO. There’s a lot of sites you can get this information but I personally like yourbrainonporn.com Now you need to change your environment and lifestyle. There’s a lot of changes you can make. I’ll list the ones on top of my head Cold showers No use of electronic devices (phones, laptops, etc... when you’re at home Busying yourself everyday such as socializing with family, exercising, etc... mans many more... We can all relate to what you just said so please don’t kill yourself. I remember the time when I couldn’t get past 4 days and I’ve been battling with this addiction for a decade. I’m still fighting, we all are fighting. If you need any help, you can message here or direct message me Stay safe and Insha Allah you’ll be healed *EDIT* Don’t put too much pressure on yourself like marriage, friends, jobs, etc... Focus on improving yourself first and then take the next step step by step
Get a blood panel taken and get checked for underlying conditions, including hormones and thyroid. Take care of your physical health and your mind will follow.