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Sexual Confusion | Sissy Addiction | Crossdressing Help

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Psychoduck3111, Nov 23, 2020.

  1. Psychoduck3111

    Psychoduck3111 New Fapstronaut

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    Hello guys, I am an 18-year-old male. I have identified as a male for all of my life, and never really placed my gender identity into question.

    Since I was a kid I had an interest in women's clothing. I would steal my mom's pantyhose and swimsuits and would love to wear these. I crossdressed before any exposure to porn. I found PMO when I was 10 and from the summer of 2013 on I masturbated every single day, night and morning, and up to 4 times a day. Throughout that time I developed feet fetishes, pantyhose fetishes, and eventually settled on trans porn. I was hooked on it for some reason, maybe my low self-esteem? I'm not sure though. Throughout that time I also kept on crossdressing and enjoying women's clothing. I would masturbate, ejaculate, and get rid of everything right away, yet I still liked it as much as when I was a kid. Mind you, I had not fapped to sissy porn or anything related yet, just pure imagination. This unhealthy habit continued until 2020, ruining relationships and pushing me into regrettable situations with men just because I was horny. I never really liked doing stuff with guys, and porn made stuff with women unenjoyable.

    When Covid started I continued fapping to trans porn and crossdressers, I always found it hot, although I'm sure the trans fetish is porn-induced. I eventually stumbled into femboys and immediately into sissy porn. I became addicted to it and fapped for 2 months. I bought toys and clothes just to throw them away. My addiction made me break up with my gf. My insecurities were exploited. I watched Hypnos almost every day and ended up getting fucked by a dude, just to realize I did not like it at all, and that sexual encounters with men are gross in my liking. Not homophobic, just don't like doing things with men.

    I found NoFap in September and have been attempting reboots ever since. I'm not being hard on myself since I've been hooked on porn for 8 years straight. I know sissy porn, and really all porn is bad.

    My question is whether crossdressing is ok, and can be done alongside NoFap. Given how it's been a part of me since before I found porn I am really confused. I would love to hear your guys' thoughts on it. I would also love to hear some tips on overcoming sissy porn, I am progressing slowly but surely.
     
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  2. JoeinUSA

    JoeinUSA Fapstronaut

    As I read your story, I didn't think you were self-described as gay at all, just that your choices of P and fetishes are twisting you. See where it took (and takes) you, indeed. Cross-dressing is often a fetish for heterosexual men who get aroused by women's clothing next to their skin. It's a different motive than a transsexual who may want transform into a woman. But, overall, if you are aiming for healthy and genuine sexual growth, I would not consider crossdressing or any fetish as healthy, nor is PMO - they are all masks or self-medicative, addictive habits that are covering up the real problem that you should be dealing with. So, I wouldn't recommend the practice, just as I wouldn't recommend PMO. Neither will be conducive to future healthy relationships or manners in living freely in your future.

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  3. modernstore99

    modernstore99 Fapstronaut


    hey man I've had a really similar story to you. If you go to my profile, click on the "Information" tab, and then click on the link that says "Am I a Sissy?", you can read my story. DM me if you have any questions or just want to talk.

    To answer your question though, you need to stop crossdressing during your reboot. No matter how long you've been doing it, it's reinforcing the same neural pathways in your brain connected to sissy porn and arousal, and activating those pathways will prevent you from healing. Pretty much anything related to "being a sissy" must cease during your reboot and rewire period, and probably forever.

    Again, please hmu if you have any questions or are just confused about the place you're in.
     
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  4. TheSmilingKid

    TheSmilingKid Fapstronaut

    I'm not OP, but thanks for the clarification. I will check out your thread!
     

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