Semen Retention and Neediness

Yes.

Stay true to your streak. Use time to understand yourself and invest your time wisely. Gain a modicum of mastery over yourself. Cultivate a healthy body and a relatively tranquil state of mind. Build a modicum of discipline. Soon you'll begin to be comfortable in your own skin and accept you with your virtues and flaws. You'll less likely crave for attention, or appreciation. Neither will you try to prove anyone anything. Because you'd have understood that much of the journey is about your mindset and how you apply your mind to the situations arising. You get a knack about when to fight and when to ignore.

As you cultivate discipline, you'll know the difference between the victim mindset and the victor mindset. You begin to be aware of how your attitude affects your perception. How the victor mindset will help you scale walls which you thought were insurmountable. You'll learn to pursue your path with clarity and you'll learn to reject what doesn't serve you even when the whole world may advise you otherwise.

You'll have a sense of stability that words can not convey. There is no price tag for this. You cannot buy it from anywhere in the whole universe. You'll discover it within yourself- the treasure of awareness, the power of clarity, the strength of intention. This is perhaps, the greatest gift a man is privy to, this is the birthright of man, yet many fail to discover it, hopelessly running after this and that....

The answer is within. Seek it. Be the warrior who cuts through addiction, laziness, excuses. Push through the pain. Go further. Read. Unlearn. Practice things that strengthens.

It took me about more than 470 days of abstinence to be reborn.

When I look back, the 4 years I spent in this forum, singlehandedly fighting porn addiction, determined to slay this crap has been one of the best things I did in my life. During those times, my primary goal was to kill this addiction, cultivate my self, physically, mentally, spiritually....I had been by myself, no relationship.

I spent years like a young lion warded off his home..struggling, scared, defeated many times...addiction has taken everything from me..but after years of experience, numerous internal and external ordeals, I've changed. I'm like a grown lion, quiet confident and relatively sure of footsteps.

It has paid off..and I'm enjoying my dividends and I'm sure that this will accompany me in the years to come.

Heal. Find yourself. Once you have crossed a threshold, there is no going back...

Once you have tasted honey, there is no way you are going to consume shit.

Finish this addiction once and forever. Stay strong and take care

 

Whenever I think about neediness I'm reminded of the apocryphal story about Socrates walking through the marketplace and going, "wow, look at all the stuff I don't need." I feel like when we get to a certain place in a streak, that's where we go with women. We can walk the marketplace, the galleries, the streets and say to ourselves, "wow, look at all the females I don't need - not for validation, not for pleasure, nor sex, nothing." And sometimes that comes regardless of how long our streak is.

In the beginning stages of my streak, I find myself longing for a woman. When I don't have one in my life, I easily resort back to the more digital varieties of the female experience. I take this as a misguided attempt to search for intimacy outside of myself, which always leads to ruin. When I realize that I am the beggar who stands in need of my own kindness, I can relate to myself and my feelings of neediness and loneliness in a more healthy way. I interpret it as being simply confused. Instead of searching outward, I am being called to go within myself and get intimate with those lonely, depraved, and fucked up elements of myself that I have failed to acknowledge because I am always looking outside of myself for validation, pleasure, and esteem.

What can a woman give me that I can't give myself? That is what I ask myself. And I realize - nothing. I am not denigrating true intimacy with the opposite sex, or the positives that females bring to the human experience - I am only giving recognition to the fact that only I can stand by my side. Wherever I am, however I feel, I stand by my side. And there is no female that can give me that. When I am needy, I need more ME - in an authentic, forthright, and loving way. I am being called to get in touch with my own innate wholeness, that has been covered up by 'worldly clamors'.

In my experience, I get rid of neediness by the recognition of all these things - and getting back to first principles. I am retaining to be a swole gorilla and to get right with my Lord, who I'll have to return to and give my accounting. Best to be about my business, and let Him take care of the rest. I hope this helps. Stay up.