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Hi my family took me to a Doctor Who recommended I see an "early intervention" team because they said I had changed a whole lot quickly in the last few months (it rings true what some community members have said about the death of the old self - I even said when they asked 'where is the old you?' I replied "dead" and laughed).

And so the team kept asking me questions once a week and I was all insulted and pent up as you can imagine with the highest testosterone level in my life ( OVER 9000!! ; I was about 7 months deep and had no nofap or community really beyond my church that knew much or cared about abstinence. I actually am interested in becoming a monk and have been for some time. So after a few months I severed connections with the Early Intervention team and then was sort of caught and incarcerated in some sort of mental institution for 10 days where I ended up fapping after 5 days or so cos it was so real and unrelenting. I engaged so little with the conventional understanding of practical reality they all agreed upon between them If that makes any sense - "be not conformed to the world but to the constant renewing of the mind" (Romans). I was not diagnosed with anything but ended up on mind (and libido) controlling drugs for maybe a year then fapping to awful degrading brainwashing porno for maybe a few months til recently I stopped drinking so much with the help of the Church. Now back climbing the mountain but not sure where abouts exactly I am when I think of where I was. I want to get to 400 days and it might be quite attainable with nofap.

Insid, I even indicated to my carer about should I fap or not (after months of babbling and arguing) and she indicated the affirmative then my years of extreme weakness began.

Er, thoughts?

 

The Sentence above should read "Inside,"

 

Sorry it should read "a Doctor; who..." if you catch my drift?

 

I cam see how the capital W can be a throw off