Hey guys I am a 16 year old teen I watched this shit first time in 9th standard and since the day I masturbated for the first time it turned an addiction. I am depressed all the time and it has been two years long time . I want to cry sitting alone but manage to control myself. I tried to put restrictions on myself by :- 1 Limiting YouTube ( It's a trigger for me double meaning jokes ) 2 Stopped quora , I don't know why I get double meaning meme and pictures there. 3 I even tried to spend time with family only but at night I am all alone . I have less worth than a shit I think . You all couldn't even imagine all the shit I watch is between the time 10:00 to 12:30 at night ( You can say almost 98% of I watched in my previous year is in this time) . Only in this part of time I get time to get urges and spoil my next day. Most of you will recommend me take a sleep at this time but I can't bcoz its my study time . I am preparing for an entrance exam ( You can google it "JEE" ) . I had to study hard and accomplish my dream of cracking it so I can't sleep at this time. Now I want to tell you the mentality of me when I get urges. 1> Today I saw a bikini picture by mistake in google ads. I should fap. 2> Today my mock test was a shit , I should fap. 3> Today my favourite club lost the match so i should fap. 4> Today I did timepass all the day on YouTube so I should fap. 5> Sometimes even if I read just one word **** , ***** I get urges. 6> The intense pressure of upcoming entrance exam and the high expectations of my parents . ( My parents always trust me and hope from that I will do something great in my life , They never doubt on me which most parents do.) Even I read in this amazing website that 12-13 year boys are wiser than me and I am garbage and childish. I am cheating my parents and this literally the worst thing. I don't have any this videos or pics on my pc and phone. I google it when I get urges. P L E A S E H E L P My longest streak is 5 days and I want to extend it to infinity... Thank you. SORRY FOR POOR ENGLISH. Edit1 > Today 8 ctober 2020 is my day 1. I received excellent advices from my first post so I hope that this time also I will get some knowledge from you guys .
