I've been skipping school a lot lately, I'm not sure why exactly, my anxiety isn't even that profound anymore. I checked my schedule for my classes, and I looked one week ahead, it turns out I have an exam next Thursday, in math. That by itself makes me feel cold sweat. The girl who I am interested in, I am starting to lose faith how to win her over. She is an incredible person, she is sexy, beautiful, she has this maturity with her, but simoutaniosly being fun and loose. Does she want to be around me if she really gets to know me, I am not the best human on this earth for sure, I acknowledge that. The number of people I have harassed online is uncountable. I am selfish, manipulative, mean-spirited, glee. The one times I have been caught in harassing, I solely looked out for myself, I was not concerned with their feelings, I was being upset getting busted for what I did. I told my mother a dude who bullied me in the early school ( grade school =) i'm not sure how the school order works, it was before high school. I was being mean to him online. My mother was upset with me, and wondered how she had raised me to have this behaviour towards other people, she was in a state of shock. I wanted to share it with you, get it off my chest as you say. At least I did not succumb to my porn addiction, it will not take that away from me
