ROAD TO QUITTING ONCE AND FOR ALL

DAY 1

hey, today is my day 1 I relapsed twice after a month streak. I feel numb at the moment cause I've been here so much times I've really lost count honestly. I haven't been posting here for a while maybe since June 2016 when I was on day 3. and now here I am in 2018 sitting in the same spot. its very sad to be honest. I see people growing everyday but im still in the same spot as before. I really want to quit this addiction once and for all. Im in college now and I've been doing good grade wise and have been social this past month. I know I might've messed that up for myself for the next couple of weeks. I wanna stop having sex and porn and masturbating all together. in order to heal myself. I feel sad right now that im back to day 0 but theres only up from here and things could always be worse.

 

I will also be starting a meditation habit