Well god dammit, July was fucking shit. June was my game changing month, but July was terrible. I fell right back into my habits. I was getting my attraction to girls back, I fell into temptation and fapped like a madman. Don't do this, I'm right back into my zero libido insecure mindset. It's not as bad as before and I don't think it'll last as long, but it just sucks. I'm heading across states in a couple weeks to visit some friends and there is a girl I'm interested in there. Hopefully in 2 weeks time my libido will be back a little bit like it was before. I have no excuses for my relapses, I was just weak. I didn't even fight my temptations, I just gave in. This time I know that exiting a flatline brings on urges from hell. Every stage of PMO rebooting sucks, the flatline mentally fucks you. Depression, anxiety, insecurity. And when you get out of a flatline you get slammed with urge after urge. I guess everyone goes through a bad relapse though. Don't worry I'm not giving up, I'm just tired of failing.
Yeah man tomorrow is my 3 day man free of porn it’s a battle man this addiction sucks man stress gets to me sometimes man and the depression and anxiety man it’s really bad man porn messes you up mentally man I know it’s so hard to quit because the pressure gets to you
I’ve relapsed more times than I care to admit. I’ve been there and know exactly what you’re going through. All I can say is be very weary of the flatline, because as soon as it begins to let up a relapse is almost sure to occur if you let your guard down. Never get too overconfident. I’ve read testimonies from people that have gone a year without fapping and just one weak moment caused them to enter a full binge and they were right back to their old habits. This just proves that even though abstinence becomes easier, you always have to stay vigilant for temptations.