Relapsed because of Over-confidence

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by rooftop, Jun 4, 2018.

  1. rooftop

    rooftop Fapstronaut

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    Before I start streaks I set myself a set of rules to follow yes or yes. One is for example is sport before dinner and then no internet / technology of any kind in the night, since 90% of my relapses are by night (and probably about 80% in weekends lol)

    Well yesterday I was over confidence that this pmo I got no interest at all anymore and used the computer by the night... and I relapsed.

    Key point of the history: Improvements about urges and cravings are REAL, but that doesn't mean that the dopamine/porn pathways are still there and if you give them the leg in the door the monster will get to you :*
     
  2. 333

    333 Fapstronaut

    I've done this more times than I can even count. After a good run, there's a part of me that wants so badly to believe "everything is different now," "thank God that part of my life is over," etc...

    So I'll allow myself to crack just a little bit, and to take a peek a something that's a little stimulating (a girl showing skin on YouTube, or Tinder profiles for example). And, all of a sudden, those old desires rush over me like a barrel of water being poured out on my head. And I find myself sucked into a rabbit hole that doesn't end for the next 12 hours.

    One of the worst parts about this problem is it's ability to convince you (over and over) that it doesn't exist anymore.
     
  3. rooftop

    rooftop Fapstronaut

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    Yeah I can see that. Sometimes when I compare this to a drug addiction I think "fuck, its really nonsense this shit, its not THAT difficult to quit". However like its in a way "easy", its at the same time "hard" just for the same reason lol
     

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