Relapsed again

Sorry you're struggling at the moment bud what have you tried so far and what triggered this relapse?

 

Hey, don't give up now! If you start again, it will be easier, because your brain is more experienced! Remember all the great emotions and moments from being free and make them your base for another round. Remember what brought you to your failure and next time consequently keep yourself away from it.
Read more about your addiction, make a new plan and start today.
You've done great so far, so stand up and challenge yourself to do even more! Learn from your experience! You can do this!

 

Take a moment to breathe and realize that you're still the same person. You may have done things that you regret, but that doesn't change who you are. You may have fallen today but you can get up, one more time. We cannot win every single battle, but we need to keep fighting. Don't give up hope !

 

This is day 91, its one day +90, don't get desperate lol. I have porn and sex embedded in me since age of 6. I don't even know how is life without daily sex content.
My goal is to remove porn and if I feel the urge for relapse, I will relapse but on my own terms, only once, cold showers, next days I will make them busy, no porn, no photos, no nothing. As far as I understood from the people here, it will be a slow process since I still get the dopamine hit but if there porn is not involved and no chaser effect I am still in a good shape to start a new streak. In fact I went 10 days, then I couldn't hold anymore, I did relapse with no porn, first 2 days didn't had any sexual thought but now in day 3 I got hit hard few times by the most hardcore shit I have drilled in my head, it isn't as stronger as in first streak but still for my small 2 streaks there is a huge improvment, you got the weapons to fight it!
Just make yourself busy, workout, cold shower and don't forget first week is the hardest.
And you just got 90 days with 3 faps instead of 3*90 faps.

 

No big deal brother. Just keep going, 1 day is not going to reset 90 days.

 

honestly I don't even count how many times I've reset. I still screw up, though I've been 98% consistent and healthy and I don't have any PIED anymore. and it just gets easier. Don't worry about the numbers man. Guys think this is a video game in terms of reaching a certain day, your brain doesn't care about days they are just targets not tangible change points. Just keep working and let your brain morph back to what it should be. Real puss and normal erections.

 

Hang in there man. 90 days is amazing. The goal is always progress not perfection.

 

Well today I am day 4 but 14 days without porn. Today I had a morning wood with a girl that I used to talk a lot of sexual stuff. Yesterday I was bombarded with some porn memories(most hardcore I have), but today doesn't feel like such a strong urge. My head is in a warfare right now, I wanna go 14 days no matter what if the urges are gonna be too hard to contain I will relapse but without porn and only 1 time. In a sense this is slower than hardcore, but I get used to overcome relapses and porn gets removed for sure, this is my goal. Even if I see porn later I don't wanna feel anything for it. And I think if I relapse once in 2 weeks/1 month, I get used to get a boner from my senses and nothing digital, like a girl touching me.
I went 10 days on first streak because tomorrow I have a lot of socializing to do and I decided I'd better be already in a 5 day streak rather than be lower, but I am going for 14 days minimum this time and then 1 month. If I relapse under 5 times till summer I am really happy because I used to do it 3 times a day in January till 23, December and November.
Hope you learn from this, that porn is the enemy not relapses, no way you masturbate 3 times without porn, you can get stimulated like that only by a woman or something artificial.
To be honest after these 14 days I don't feel the need to google porn, which makes me really happy even if I am bombarded with some memories.