Relapse

Day 0. I was not on high alert, I was feeling elated and positive after a week off porn, envisioning my future positively, working mostly to match my ideal. And then I got bored, just sitting in my bedroom watching TV. I went onto porn from about between 9 and 10pm, and just let it happen. Now I wake up with the most painful feeling in my head, I cannot think or focus, and I am frustrated. I still see my ideal, and the direction I need to head in. It is just extremely painful afterwards, when considering myself as someone who it would be good for to meet people, have real relationships and enjoy real life. And in this state that cannot happen as I'd like it to. I need my self-confidence and respect back. I shall continue onwards, take yesterday as a setback, but pivot, keep myself distracted and busy later into the day, and work to not let it happen again.