Relapsed tonight. Saw it coming earlier in the day. Built anticipation with a new girl I've been talking to and things didn't "Close" with her tonight so I instantly got tempted when she went home. As bad as I feel I do know 28 days (4 weeks) was worth the discipline and discomfort. I also now truly know that it wasn't worth loosing my discipline and all the positives 28 straight days with zero P or MO'ing projected into my daily life. I felt like I had so much built up aggression and testosterone that I needed to do something. Not an excuse though. The good thing is that I am going out of town next week for about 7 weeks. I will try again using that as a time to clear my mind and re gain a new and serious sense of discipline. I am determined to succeed even after falling 12 days short of my 40 day goal I know now how difficult this really is. Thanks for your support.
28 is a great streak. Why is critical now is not to dwell on it, and whatever you do don't start binging. Focus on the process. You were very aware of what triggered the relapse, that is great. Learn from it for next time.
I feel the same way friend! I relapsed at 13 days with a new girl I've been talking too, wasn't worth it and I feel even more detirmed to do this now good luck
You've made a lot of progress; mentally and physically. Ensure you don't binge as all the hard work would go to waste.
I relapsed at 15 days, since then I've been on a binge. But I'm mustering the courage and strength to pull out of this mess. Once I'm up, I'm going and never looking back. Its true what guys say, not to dwell on the relapse, but continue with the positive mindset and setting eyes on the big prize.
Reading you guys' posts has been like reading my own story. I relapsed after fifteen days, then relapsed again after eight. Both times, the trigger to which I chose to give in was a date with my new girlfriend. She and I are waiting on physical intimacy for religious reasons, so don't do more than kiss, but nonetheless I come away from a date with her completely physically stimulated and looking for an outlet, and porn provides a rationalization. Both times, I said "fuck it, I've screwed up" and binged, and binged on more intense and depraved material than I usually did before. I've seen it all and I'm sick of it, it's the same cycle every time.
I recommend examining each relapse, and posting about it. Really analyze why you relapsed. That will help you recognize the symptoms next time.
