Record broken

I am going for 90 days and today I shattered my previous record of 31. It's bittersweet considering some of the things I've had to deal with the past 32 days, but I'm excited and optimistic that I'll make it to 90 and beyond. I've found that it really has to do with your mind and the thoughts within. Yes, if you allow yourself to have those thoughts all the time and to be horny, you will probably relapse. You have to stop it right where it starts. I have had some intense urges but instead of letting my internal decision making process linger I just said "fuck no" and decided it wasn't even an option. I have felt some positive effects. I'm definitely more aggressive, and I'm also a little more impatient and tired of dealing with peoples bullshit. I used Pmo as a way to deal with anxiety and stress and loneliness and being starved of affection. But now I realize Pmo wasn't solving any of that, it just felt like it was, for a very short time. I most definitely used it like a drug and not the way it was intended to be used. I'm having the hardest time looking at women in public (the beach especially). I know it's not wrong to do that, but I'm getting kinda horny from it and there are times when I just can't say "fuck no" and look away. I know I won't relapse but isn't part of a reboot not eyeing chicks in public all the time?

 

Thanks Madrid. I'm not sure man. I feel like it's part of being a man but I also want to be done with that entire way of thinking. Looking at women and wanting to have sex with them is obviously a natural thing and part of being human, but it's also kind of a grey area, especially with nofap. I think it's so ingrained into our DNA it's almost like breathing, and that's why you can do it without even really thinking about it. I think it's pretty harmless, and I don't see it causing a big problem with my nofap streak. It just makes me kinda insecure that I can hardly control it.