Recent Development

Sup bros. So i go to school in cali and i went to my frat party last night (in a frat). Basically during parties i would awkwardly walk around, avoiding eye contact w girls, etc. If i didnt know the girl i would almost never approach them head on. *Also another thing is that when PMO I would skip alot of parties bc soley of anxiety.

Last night was strange. The beginning of the party there wasnt many people at all, just drinking beeer chilling. There was this girl that was smoking cigs outside and i talked to her for literally 30 mins. Im gonna be honest, throughout that time this girl was mainly talking. She told me about her major and classes, etc (alot more, not just boring topics). Keep in mind i didnt lay pipe with this girl bros or even cop her digits..

But regardless i believe that i am making progress. Also I played flip cup and brought up 2 or 3 topics of convo w this really cute chick (another babe) and she seemed to be taking that convo well. (again nothing sexual, I AM REBOOTING, therefore i am not sure if i can still get hard w sex, I am having morning wood but still idk).

There was basically a sorority there and at one point they were just in a group talking to eachother. You have to understand, in the past i would completely be intimidated and look down to the ground and walk away, avoid them. Now i didn't avoid them last night but i was sorta thinking of approaching the group and talking. I think with girls, im better with talking to them one on one instead of talking to an entire group (6-7 babes), like attractive girls we arent talking medicore. Not to sound like an asshole or dick, but I am an asshole lmao.

Now, at this time in the party I was very wasted and bought cocaine and snorted a shit ton of it. My friend, whos a girl (mentioning this only bc it correlates w this forumn) came through and i remember everything going well (convos as usual, EXCESSIVE COCAINE USUAGE, not an addict lol). But yeah i completely blacked bc throughout this i was drunk. So good night overall, this morn my nose and throat burns and i feel like dying. But good night, making process. Oh and i should note, although i was drinking beer throughout this, i was relatively sober throughout talking to these 2 chicks at the party.

Dont know if this placebo or just NoFap benefits, but im gonna stay with this NoFap thing. If you take one thing from this forumn, take this. At times throughout your journey you may woinder if this whole thing is bullshit. I often wonder bc i dont believe people in terms of everybody getting on this site and only having positive things to say. I suppose i am a member though so take it as you will. BUT, ask yourself this.. What do ou have to gain from PMO or even MO in my case? Absolutely goddamn nothing. Out of my years of MO and PMO i developed anxiety and self consciousness AND A GODDAMN DICK THAT CANT GET HARD WHEN I TAKE A SMOKIINGG CHICK HOME. I feel fucking robbed. This aggression will not stand!

Another thing i wanted to say bc im saying it is that for me quitting P is easy so far but MO is my main thing. Idk if i have PIED (im not gonna sit here and self diagnose my ass and expect you all to pretend that i know what im talking about) or if i have the death grip syndrome (MO almost always sitting vigourous MO, fast jerking) but fuck it. Either way this supposed to help. Im only what now 10-11 days, idek. See, i feel thst if you count the days constrant;ly and see how long yuou can last w/o MO you will fail. I completely put it as not an option. Like i dont touch myself lol but we will see if i relapse but hopefully i will not. Fuck it bro, let it riiiiiiiiddddddeeeeeeee.

Peacee Brothass

 

sick bro

 

accurate lmao

 

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