Hi, this is my first time on this forum. Ive realized i had an addiction to pornography for the last year. Porn has gotten in the way of my life in so many ways. It has made me depressed, made me anxious, its made me question the type of person i am, and its taken me to some very dark places. I honestly think ive been addicted for years. I was exposed to it at an early age like 10 years old or something like that. Never thought it was an issue for me until i got to college. I started watching it more and more. The genre of the porn i was watching became more depraved. I realized i spent hours and hours on porn sites just browsing without even master-bating because i was bored or the type of porn i was watching wasnt enough to get me off. I know i cant keep doing this. I need to change. Ive been all over the internet because of this addiction, places i never imagined i could even go. Im not this person, its like im a different person when i go online when compared to who i am in real life. I would never in a million years want to do things in real life that i fapped to over the internet. I realized i had a problem a year ago. I tried so many different ways to stop watching porn. I got a therapist, i went on meds for anxiety, kept track of how many days i could stay clean. But in the end i always folded, its like i know i need to stop but in that moment i just dont care its like im being controlled by someone else. I talked to my therapist and am working very closely with them. I was always half assing this, never fully serious about getting rid of porn. I always thought it has been apart of my life for so long idk how to be without it. But im tired of it always shadowing over me, tired of it making me feel like shit and fucking up anything good i feel i have going for myself. I know this is going to be a hard journey. Years of addiction dont go away overnight, but im really trying now, and i just pray that i can become free of this soon.