Really trying today

I admit I’m not trying as hard as I have in the past.

I’d say I’m compulsively addicted to the chaser effect, Masturbator toys for when I need to. Morning and night I feel like I am unable to bypass my mind to stop.

Really unsure right now that my brain receptors and dopamine levels have just failed to work now. That’s genuinely what I feel like.

Home… They place where comfort is.

I think it’s the worst when I get into my room. Exhausted, fatigued, and having chronic fatigue from my immune disorder.

Any tips in progressing out of this cycle? It’s a horrid cycle right now and I’d feel like a huge dipshit looser for my girlfriend who I do everything for as she does back and for her kids. I feel like I can be a normal person but i’m just compulsively addicted right now and my hobbies and interests feel depleted.