Re-inspired to really quit PMO after reading "Your brain on porn"

What's up guys? I'm a healthy, single, 35 year old man who's been using porn since I can remember. I've tried to quit so many times that in last couple of years I've just avoided it as much as possible but resigned myself to a relapse once a week or so. I know in my heart that this habit is the biggest problem in my life and I'm ready to finally get over it...Fap no more in 24'.

In reading the book, YBOP, I'm reminded of my symptoms...social anxiety, lack of interest in or total fear of girls. In my last relationship (like 7 years ago) I experience DE and it was kinda scarring, making my just avoid relationships in general. Also, my life was just totally a mess back then...I drank too much, smoked pot all the time and was deeply depressed. My life didn't have a purpose and it was killing me. Since then I've gotten healthy, greatly reduced my drinking, started a successful business, bought a house, reestablished family relationships and many other improvements but porn use is the one thing that I've been unable to kick.

I feel the results of this sexually but also even deeper in the sense that it's a constant background failure that I'm allowing myself to have. I don't trust myself on a deep level because of it. It affects my confidence at a core level. I realize that fapping is a gut punch to my personal sense of integrity and will avoid it pretty easily during the week of during a challenging project where I know that I need to be on top of my game. As soon as the project is over or I see a little wiggle room in my schedule though, all bets are off. I'll get off by myself and just totally indulge, usually as many times as possible before I know I need to come back to my senses. I'll have extreme anxiety for a day or two following these binges until I get back in the swing of things and then abstain again until I see my next chance to act out.

I'm so ready to finally kick this behavior and continue to grow as a person. I'm so ready for the symptoms of social anxiety to ease and to begin to be able to trust myself again. I'm hoping that by posting on here that I'll be able to hold myself to account and learn from all of you that have been down this same road. Thanks for listening, and TIA for your advice and support.