if i am immersed in PMO I gave in to a completely wrong use of the sex energy. A very negative mind. Sex energy is beautiful and pure. Back when I was 16 and I had first encounters with a girl I was always so aroused and I was only interested in her doing well and loving her. When we departed I was sooo endless happy. It was overwhelming how beautiful bright and pure this was. This is how I know -also from later- is how sex and the right use of sex energy can be. Immersed in PMO the opposite occurs. Laziness negativity low energy darkness take place. We allow this to happen and it’s impossible in this huge pile of rubbish to perceive anything beautiful at all. Hooked and separating oneself from beauty and happiness. This mind this purity I know I want to regain. I don’t allow the many ways that pull me into the darkness and a low bad life anymore to take control. I am in control. It needs discipline determination and attendance to the process of cleansing.