Porn has made me into a monster

Use it or lose it. I'll be honest. I think social skills are something one gains through practice. You might've had those abilities earlier, but you've "lost" many of them and it's time to regain them.

 

Sure it's normal to want sympathy from others when you feel pain.
But of course you should avoid forcing that on others if the relationship is not fit for that.
I have had to work a lot on conversations too - one good principle is to be an active listener. Begin with the other person (or group). Ask questions and genuinely listen, get the person to state an opinion, etc., and go on from there. Think of it as a little bit of work that you do for the other person.

 

I think I know what you mean. But like the other poster said, it's also about skills.
What I tried to say is, to have good conversations is to get out of your own head and try to relate to others.

But why do you call yourself a monster, with a scary aura? Sounds like you are being a bit harsh on yourself.

 

Okay, well that sucks. What can you do to reverse it?
I like your phrase "overcoming things you thought you couldn't".

 

You're not a monster. Stick to the path with NoFap and work on yourself in every possible area you can. It's hard but rewarding. Also don't pay attention to what kids say about you, most kids are idiots.

 

So because some kids said you're scary and give off weird vibes, you believe it? You need to work on your self image my friend.

 

I can understand, I think of what my eyes have seen and it makes me feel downright deplorable! BUT I will not be like this the rest of my life! I am trying to live in the present and actively make changes.