Hello everyone. I am 35 male. and I am from Egypt "sorry for my bad English". and I have been addicted to porn and masturbation since I was 20. When I look back at my life. I see that I haven't achieved that much. No career, No money, no family, not serious relationship. I am not exaggerating, this is where I am. When I try to figure out the reason of all that. I think porn addiction and masturbation is the main reason. I have wasted most of my time and energy watching porn and masturbating. and I have wasted more time in regret and depression that I can't quit it no matter how hard I try. I decided many times to cut it out and move on with my life. but I couldn't help it to stay for more than 2 or 3 days before I get back to it. I am a freelance programmer. and I work from home. but being stuck at home with the internet doesn't help either. Because porn is is one mouse click away and I don't have any serious relationship. I have tried hard with girls. But most of the time it didn't work out. And here in the middle east it is not so easy to pick up with girls. I have had one relationships but it didn't work out. My close friends say that there is nothing wrong with me. but I am not that social person and it feels bad. because I would love to be more social and likable. I said that porn addiction is killing me because that's what it actually is. I have lost 15 years of my life doing nothing. maybe the best 15 years, the 20s. I wonder if I can fix that and have a real life. I hope you guys can help. Thanks
We can help you along your journey to wellness. Welcome to NoFap! You are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and not judge you.
Your best years are still to come. Welcome, you will find lots of good advice and help here. And don't worry about your English it's fine.
Welcome to the movement. This is YOUR recovery and you must own it. You may be familiar with other addiction recovery programs. The first 90 days of these programs require meeting everyday for the first 90 days of recovery. I suggest visiting and contributing to NoFap each of your first 90 days. Glean wisdom from the strong, encourage the new, and be wary of those who are negative and make excuses. Add the words of your struggle to those of others and help create this wonderful narrative of transformation. I have made my NoFap time a replacement for all web surfing and social media. Be wary of depending on technology like counters and web filters - the battle is between your ears more so than between your legs. Each time you are tempted to go to that foul place, you must remember the man you are working to become, and then choose to be in control. Do not allow porn to steal another second of your life. “Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does. It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.” ― Jean-Paul Sartre BE Strong My Friend.
Thank you guys for your kind replies. It's my first day here and I am already excited about the supporting community.
