Porn/Adderall - Need Advice

I’m going to keep this high level, but if you have any questions feel free to message me.

Over the past few years I’ve been dealing with an addiction to adderall/porn. This addiction has led to lost jobs, ruined relationships, horrible judgement, and crippling debt. My life has been a complete mess. I have received therapy/treatment over the past year and I know I just need to eliminate adderall as it’s directly tied to the PMO addiction (without it I have no urges or compulsive behaviors). I made it 5 months without porn/adderall until this past week. I took some adderall from a friend and it was all downhill from there. I know I can get back on track but this slip up has me questioning a lot and brought me to this site. I’m worried about the damage I’ve already caused my brain because even at 5 months I still didn’t completely feel like myself again. I know it takes time and I need to be patient I just wanted to hear from people who have actually gotten to the point where they genuinely feel like themselves again. I’ve included a few questions below any advice or thoughts would really be appreciated

- Has anyone with adderall/porn addiction been able to rewire their brain so they weren’t into specific things in porn? If so, how long did it take? The adderall has led me to things I feel disgusted about
- When do you start feeling like yourself again?
- Has the addiction caused you to lose a sense of love for others? I struggle with this and feel like it’s even hard liking new people that I’m dating