pmo to something disgusting is so bad

i mean like something so horrific to you it leaves your body and mind in state of fight or flight after for days

why the fuck to i do this to myself

i need to find a way to overcome this terrible affliction.

i quit porn and a few days later im looking at the fucked up stuff and thats me mentally and physically wrecked. for days .

when i relax i get mental images its like it haunts me.

I Dont know what ive become but its mentally and physically destroying me

i go a few days no porn and i begin to feel im in the clear, my minds is no longer attacking itself as much and im beginning to relax and focus on other things . then bam surge of hormones and all that energy and focus and calm is turned to anxiety and stress. its fucking terrible

There has to be another way, ive been trying to quit porn for 3 years unsuccessfully .

im willing to try anything at this stage to quit porn snd reframe my mind away from it .
it just seems so difficult because its so ingrained .

what options are there really.

speak to a doctor about ssri that could be a possibility but last resort .

i grow weed havent in about a year besides the fact i like weed i like growing it i am hoping it will kill my sex drive .

another option is become an alcoholic but yeah i can no longer get drunk.

i think my dopamine system is completely out of whack considering i have a terrivle addiction to porn that is wrecking me physically and mentally but i am completely unable to get drunk anymore even eith any sort of sobriety. i havent been drunk in 5 years and ive put away a 1ltrr bottle of whiskey and 15 beers in a single sitting nothing had a burger and sober as a judge . dopamine is completely fucked . im guessing its that 3 day refractory period . i cant get past it . Adhd was always going to be a problem huh