PMO: Fail

Sorry for my english.

About me: 23 y. I watch porn 10 yrs. I was very bad. With time, I start have seen incest and all kinds of disgust. Hard dependence, but if I want I can stop it.



Failure is not alien to me. Several times I beat 30 days and fail on purpose no pmo hard mode. Well, of course it's hard ... Last year, I got over 100 days and I failed completely consciously. 3 days ago I reached 43 days and I fell on purpose. It's hard, but achievable. I just do not have to eat with erotic information (advice if I read others like me at night go to the toilet before going to bed).

The question is: I read some of Mr. Baev's statement that the alcoholic after years of abstinence, even a little can fail in everything in the brain, I do not quite remember. So, after these 43 days and 2 days of continuous (more than 10 times for sure pmo), did these 43 days sense.

And I waited for at least 4+ months so I can look for a friend to go through all the negative things. Well, we start from the beginning. Thanks for the answers. Me and so I am angry, but if the second day spoils the 43th I will box with the wall ...

 

Was it worthwhile and profitable for those 43 days after I failed ?!