Please ask me how am i .

I want to cry.
Please just ask me some personal questions.
Ask me anything pls

 

I don't know how to measure my stress levels as high/low but in a day i think/become very sad/anxious about 'not having a job and have to get one asap' many times in a day. So i think i am very stressed internally not that i show but i am very stressed about my career.

Last time i was very happy when my family bought a car.that was in dec 24/2021 . Then after life is pretty much sad with no good moments.

I am looking forward to graduating fast (will graduate in 4-5 months). Becuz after graduation I'll go to different city/state start my new life with more opportunities and social circles.but till then it's tough ongoing solitude for 2.5 years is killing me :-(

Thanku siiiiiir SilentWolfSong for asking.

 

Hey man thx for asking.
Pretty much very bad missed my meditation , missing my studies, workout all becouse my parents have gone to somewhere and i have to take care of the house and shop, which results me in staying in my room and so my habit triggers very much because of that room.

In recent 3-4 days no one is present in the house so i had fapped for a very long time. yesterday i fapped and watched porn for 10+ hours with eating breaks (from 4pm to 5am). I've recently discovered some sites that are very addictive as they are new to me and some vedios like over enthusiast white teen girls craving for bbc(this feels like cuck to me and i am addicted to it)and some transwoman pornos. Overall i think i am watching very toxic shit that is ruining my perspectives in my life. Like i become sad that i don't have a bbc dick and 6ft height and i feel like i can never get a chance to fuck the 9s,and 10s in my life also because i have watched black pill theories which concludes that before 30s girls want looks and seeks physical attributes more than anything.
While i watch those things i and think why am i not there. Why in my 20s i am still single and virgin . Will i ever be able to fuck this crazy gals before my 30s or I'll just watch myself failing in all aspects of life and becoming a cuck.
I feel very inferior looking to bbc porn because i don't have those attributes and i always think i will never be able to satisfy girls and they will fuck a bbc behind my back or even in front making me a cuck. Still i see that shit i don't know why . These cycles disturbs my mind very much and throws me into a depression.
Although i am not in depression but i think I'll be in depression if i continue to watch all thise things .

 

Thank you so much i feel that the same thing. At all the love will be what maters and the materialistic things eventually fade away.