I've had a few decent steaks and my PIED has gotten somewhat better as I've had some successful sex but only while drunk. I have girls that wanna do stuff including a girl I had feelings for in the past but I'm terribly anxious about underperforming and not being able to get it up. It's scarred me in the past and I just don't feel like dealing with it again until a full 90 days on hard mode where I'm more confident in my performance but at the same time I don't want to pass up this opportunity. I'm currently on a 2 day streak after I relapsed after 2 weeks. I've also been battling some HOCD but I've gotten it under control some. So, basically I don't want to pass up this opportunity but at the same time I feel far from ready. Any suggestions??
If you really want a recommendation: pass it up, complete at least 30 days with no self provoked orgasms, and then get back with her for the rest of the 90 days. As you get to know her better, your performance anxiety should diminish, you will care more for her and for pleasing her, and you should be able to fully enjoy it without alcohol.
