Overcoming PIED.

I had been watching porn and masterbating everyday multiple times a day for a bout 7.5 years before I had even kissed a real girl. I was 18 when I had my first kiss and I just turned 20 so you can do the math. When I finally got my first real life girlfriend I realized that porn was not only hurting me internally but was literally numbing me to everything related to real sex.

I had grown really used to porn and I could barely get hard with a lot of the videos so I figured having actual sex would cure this. I couldn't have been more wrong. The first time I had gotten alone with my new girlfriend we had been flirting through text a lot and when she came over and we tried to have sex I quickly realized that I had a big problem. I couldn't feel a single thing, i wasn't the slightest bit hard, she had tried for what seemed to be an eternity and literally nothing. I was just so embarrassed I was at a loss for words. She assumes that she was the problem and I felt like I just had to tell her why I think it happened. I told her about my addiction, mind you I had only been talking to her for a month and it was the most embarrassing thing telling her about my issue. Luckily she was understanding and she was willing to try again...

This is the step by step of exactly what happened from that moment on.

I was destroyed and went through a whole self deprecating phase where I was less of a man and I couldn't have sex. For a bout a week. That was the first week I ever abstained from porn for 7 whole days.

Then I decided that I was going to get better at sex and cut out porn because no-one should ever have to go through that.

I visited my girl once a week for a month and the thing that kept me off porn was knowing that I'd have to see her again at the end of the week and I was not going to sabotage myself more. For about a whole month of trying to get hard with her and nothing ever happening a random day she gave me oral and it got hard!!! But then then about a minute later it died again. But I was happy as all hell that day.

As we started seeing each other more and more there came more opportunities for sex to happen and eventually after about another 2 weeks I was able to keep and erection during oral for longer and longer but was never able to reach O or penetrate because it would just immediately die after she moved away.

Then came thanksgiving break. A whole week and a half with no sex no porn no masterbation nothing and there was no anxiety knowing that sex would be a fail on my end. it gave me time to recharge my brain and just relax and just recover my brain.

After I came back and saw her again I was able to penetrate for the first time.
I was so happy.
As the month continued I could go keep an erection for longer but could not ever O.

Then winter break came and I was away from her for a whole month. I used this time to learn more about sex and how to please my girlfriend in more than just one way.Of course with all this reading about sex I was not able to resist, I did PMO 3 times over the break but as school was approaching I was able to chill out about 10 days before we came back.

After we came back to school and tried to have sex it was back to square one and It was 100% because I relapsed over break. I was so disappointed in myself. By about the 3rd time we had sex i was able to come back to where I was.

Now this is where everything got CRAZY. Randomly about a week after that My ED improved a ridiculous amount. I was able to get hard just from her tough, or her speaking to me and it stayed hard. I was able to stay hard for a the whole night every night since then.

Then one night I talked to her about the fact that I hadn't been able to O and how it mad me feel and I asked her it made her feel and we talked through all of the feelings thoroughly and almost like magic the next time we he had sex it happened. My first O with an actual girl and I cant even explain how much emotion came over me I thought I was going to be unable forever.

This is super long so I'm gonna make a part 2.