Over 200 Days PMO-Free....Feeling Lost

I'd like to preface this by saying that this isn't meant to be a success story thread. Please bare with me.

Around last June I decided to abstain from PMO entirely, along with dieting, exercising, seeking therapy and pursuing various hobbies/interests.

Since then I'm in the process of therapy and I've lost around 25kg. But my biggest win is the fact I've abstained from PMO for almost 7 months now. It's significant for me because I've been doing it regularly for over a decade, since my early teenage years.

However... I feel conflicted. Although I managed to abstain completely, I find myself still victim of thoughts and fantasies about fetishes that I've 'gained' throughout my porn addiction. I find myself still getting aroused by them whenever they go through my mind. Although they have less of a grip on me and I'm able to get my thoughts under control pretty quickly, I feel like the arousal I gain when I do think about them has barely decreased. That's what I'm conflicted about.

My expectations were that I would finally be able to shed this stinking layer of - excuse my language - dogshit that has coated my mind for so many years, and that I'd be able to return to 'normal'. That I'd be indifferent or at the very least much much less aroused by these thoughts.

Am I being too impatient and is an abstinence of 200 days for a 10+ year long addiction too short? Is it maybe a lack of intimacy and sex? Or am I forever doomed to carry these fetishes with me? I've improved various aspects of my life including my physical and mental health, but I still feel lonely on a regular basis, is it maybe because of that too?

I'd love some advice about the recovery process or maybe some stories from veterans who have been in a similar position as me. Does it get better?

Thank you.