Outcast for life?!

Hey there, friend. I can relate, I've been lonely for a while too but since my social skills have improved quite a bit, I've made some contacts all around. I've met these guys who are a bit younger than me and they're like the complete opposite of me. Cause of my struggles with loneliness, masturbation and all, I feel like I've mentally evolved way more than them. They live a normal social outgoing life, while I've went through some abnormal shit. When I talked to them, it made me feel like I was out of place and even wasting my time talking to people who I can't relate to. But I've realized its good to have friends everywhere, and especially good to have different types of friends. It's fine for me to be out of place, I don't need to be in just one certain group. I don't even need deep relationships, though I can get deep with anyone I want. As long as I have positive people in my life who I can chat with, it's fine. After all this time I've been alone, I'm not afraid of it anymore. This means I can choose my friends, if things don't work out so what? I can always get back to being alone and make new friends.

 

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I get it, for a long time I lived on my own and how I dealt with the loneliness was to keep busy. I joined a karate club and dedicated myself to training to the point where I was out most nights of the week. But despite bringing people into my life and having regular interaction I still felt separate from those around me. It's interesting as over time it became apparent that in order to maintain the friendships I was forming I donned separate skins, became almost a social chameleon in order to fit in with the different groups. But despite being surrounded by people I still felt lonely. That approach didn't really work.

Now my main social interactions are with those I work with. You don't get to chose who you interact with there and I find myself staying quiet more often than not as I completely disagree with a lot of the outlooks and opinions around me but have to get on with the people who have them.

On the plus side through this process I have come across 1 or 2 individuals who I have clicked with. They are out there, it might just take a while to find them. The trick is when you do to put energy into those relationship to maintain them.