Orgasm after 300 days

Hi, we talk about retention but not much about how these streaks end. So I will tell you my experience, as I ended my 2nd 300 day hard mode streak yesterday, with my gf (like it matters, O is a O ...)

Immediately after the O I felt regret. This is a destiny of anyone who reaches these longer streaks. We condition ourselves believing O is bad and unwelcomed, to be able to reach our goals. So when we orgasm, its a failure. Thats how I felt...

Thanks god this girl was quite loving and cuddled for hours afterwards with me, so the pain was lessened...

Now its the 2nd day after the O. Some healh issues re-manifested already. I believe the CHI I cultivate during the streak holds body together, and O removes that energy like a lightning strike. BOOOM and its gone. And so is the energetic protection..

I feel very stupid with severe brain fog. My nuts hurt a bit. I have very low confidence, dont want to be seen or communicate with anyone. My comunication skills are zero now.. In the mirror, I still look good, hopefuly that will last but I doubt it.

Feel easily angered, but I try to stay calm. I have increased ear ringing (have chronic tinnitus for decades after a explosion..)

Since the O, I just try to survive, its all I do. And I hope the bad mental state goes away fast.. I just try to ride it and hope it ends soon.

I try to not be angry about what happened. I take it as a destiny... Im still processing it all and that will take at least another week or two.

I will update every day here to record how I feel, look etc...

Oh... she is the most beautiful girl I ever had in my life. If u play with this on a 300 day streak, u play with fire..

Spoiler: Foto

Its honestly a harsh world, where I cant have a normal relationship with anyone, because a orgasm cripples me severly. I try to not torture myself with what I CANT do... but its truth.. its harsh...

Ofc, it gives me the chance to have these big streaks which give me a lots of personal growth.. thats a possitive of that.

Still....

 

Apparently I considered it when its in the quote.. retention works when u do it. But the consequences of orgasm are serious, when I get to bigger streaks. I dont think there is a way back for me anyway..

Also, back to where? I was a total wreck all caused by PMO and that was just 5 years ago. I dont want to go back to that.

 

Its a no go for me. I tried it whole 2021, it was just a mess and suffering. Than I went on this streak. Thanks for your input but its not that valuable to me.. with all respects, you hardly can relate, so lets make space for others.. silence is also a option

 

3rd day. I woke up really anxious and tense. Very very tired. The anxiety vanished. I dont have the brain fog. But my throat hurts, and I start to have a fewer and Angina. Im fucked.

This is IMO partially a psychosomatic response to the stress and also response of the body to the huge weakening which was caused by the sudden CHI energy drop.

Most likely I will be ill for a week or two and the girl will be gone in the meantime. It already happened to me in the past. This will hurt... need to learn from it... theres something wrong inside me in relation to females, love, connection... and who knows what else.

 

This happened for a 3rd time if I remember corectly. I date a girl, we end up in bed, have sex, I orgasm, get ill and she is gone before I heal up. It alwqys brings immense suffering to me, mentally and ofc physically.

I think its such a stressfull event to me, I end up ill :/ Angina is a psychosomatic representation of anxiety and fear. Thats what I felt..

Its linked to the idea of loosing that girl - again. Its all a stressfull circle.

I also know that when I part ways with a girl, I partially relive the death of my mother.

Yes its easy to say go see a psychotherapist ... I do so for whole year every week. It does not help apparently.

Its a complex situation and I analyze it now. I realized its a repeating event. Thats a good start. I will use this as a way to grow. Every pain and suffering is a chance to grow.

And God knows I suffer a lot at the moment.... its because I did not learn from the past events... thus I relive em over and over.

So what is it telling me I fail to see??

 

Sharing is caring. So I shared my very intimate and vulnerable state. So share something back other than indirectly putting me even lower.. "oh look this dude is fucked, I will save his post to remind me to never ejaculate again, Ill let him know about it and not even say get better soon mate, u got it"

Ever heard about karma?

 

Thanks for a nice post. I agree with u. Mind over matter is a thing every person who goes the distance knows the best.

 

Hey man, learn at least the basics

 

Hi, thank you for pleasant reply, really. I always had these symptoms, since I started NoFap. Esp the longer streaks. My 1st 200 streak was like 4 years ago. Ended it with female, had 4 orgasms, ended up destroyed like a wreck mind u, when I was PMO addict, I had 4 orgasm a day 30 days in month 12 months a year for god knows how many years...

Im used to tantric sex. Had it with my ex for a year. It works.

But guys.. not sure who I talk to here (some unfortunatelly I know, but at least 2 decent ppl here now) - so have u had like 300 days hard mode streak? Than orgasmed? I eant to know if u have personal experience. Because its easy to say... well maybe you should not orgasm dude (troll face ) well its kind of hard.

And having it like this FOR LIFE? Thats different kind of beast.

Also, I know, that if u go beyond some distance, there is no turning back. It writrn in old yogi script amd I tend to believe it. Orgasming in that state is extremely physically harmful. So its about THAT decission....

I dont have kids... take that in mind. So its not ideal decission to do now, closing my way.

Its not simple.

Yes I feel great on my streaks, gives me purpose and transforms my life for better in all aspects imaginable...

Pls dont take my post in a offensive manner, I really apreciate discussion of value, not these oneliners of confused ones....

Ps I write from phone apologies for all the typos, also I have a fever..

Pss: 3rd day I spoke to friend and my symptoms were very mild. That was miracle. It usually just started 3rd day for me..

 

Forgot to tell you I appreciated your post. I did not have too much energy or will to reply here.

 

Actually, nobody but one person replied to the question... how do you feel after a orgasm after a long streak, preferably around 300+ days.
So I take it not many ever reached the streak, but tend to talk a lot anyway.......

To sum the results of this thread, there were like 3 ppl who had something valuable to add. Rest was just either vultures feeding on other mans suffering, or completely lost loons. Respect to the 3.

I will never again ask for guidance, help or ideas here tho.

Incase you wondering, I regrouped and went thru the necessary phases to get back. Necessary phases means a lot of pain. Not a lots of failure.