Online chat is my weakness.

I've had many years to observe myself and to understand the kind of porn that interests me. My initial exposure to porn was way back when Playboy magazine was the gold standard of the industry. I eventually came across more graphic magazines from time to time. Then when the Internet came along, the floodgates were wide open.

I've noticed though that my particular interests in porn have shifted over the years. I don't really enjoy watching videos anymore. I find that I prefer still pictures. Maybe that's because pictures allow the imagination to fill in the blanks that video lays out all the details for the viewer?

But I've also found that when I act out I don't actively seek out pictures either--at least not right away. The strongest temptation for me is online sex chat rooms. Roleplaying sex scenes is the thing that always gets me. I'll think of a scene that would be interesting to roleplay, and I'll eventually go into a chat room and play it with whomever I can find. Or someone else will propose a fantasy that I find appealing. Then, if someone else in the chatroom is posting pics, I find those can be enjoyable. But for me the porn of choice is online roleplay. Again, maybe it's because this lets me flex my imagination more than videos or pictures.

When I think back on the roleplays I've done, they disgust me. I've almost always gone into a chat room posing as a woman. (It's easier to attract attention that way.) I've done things in roleplay chats that I would never do in real life--incest, futanari, group sex, violent sex. This all makes me want to throw up when I stop to think about what I'm pretending, but of course at the time the dopamine rush is huge.

I don't know if I have a specific question here. I just wanted to say all this because I've never had a chance to say all of that out loud before.

Does anyone else here find that online sex chat is the kind of porn that tempts you the most?

 

Yeah, I'm finding that's one thing that helps me sometimes--remembering the truth. When you're sitting at a computer typing fantasies with some stranger--well, that's all you're doing. I'm not really a super-sexy person having awesome sex. It's quite pathetic when I consider that I'm a man pretending to be a woman while collaborating on a fantasy with some other guy somewhere else in the world who probably has the same problem I have. That makes me not want to do it anymore.