So yeah that's that. I actually had a truly shitty day today and almost didn't post here about my year. However, I feel like I owe it to these forums to share a little and also,,, I had a bad day, I feel like total shit.. and the idea of numbing out with PM did not ever cross my mind. That is really incredible for me. Porn binges were my way to escape all discomfort and get sucked into unreality by staring at that shit for hours on end. So that is big fucking progress. Sure I can feel down sometimes, but I don't ever hate myself the way I did after a binge. Also-No more DE.. period. I have enjoyed sex by far more than ever , I no longer need to fantasize about porn to stay aroused. This forum, 90 days hard mode, supportive friends, allowing myself to receive help from others, exercise and a resolve never to relapse again (after too many to count) are what worked. So I will keep it short and sweet, and just say thank you.
i can answer to you to this: i had sex on day 80. It was great, a beautiful experience. Today i don't know if i can have it any time i want with every girl i want, but i think that's not possible right now, so now i'm not fully rebooted.
I think it was like 86 days for me. I felt ready to put myself out there a little after the tough initial withdrawal period
