Now or never

Hello everyone. I finally decided to create an account for myself because I can´t handle the frustration any more. I´m 21 and I am pretty sure I have PIED. I have been watching porn since I was 12 or 13. Every time I tried to had sex I failed. I can´t maintain an erection, as soon as I get the condom on my erection disappears. I can only get erections touching myself as soon as I stop touching myself my erection is gone. At first I though I was just nervous to have sex, but I tried to be relaxed several times and still failed. The only time I was able to have sex was when I took some pills for ED. I got pretty confident with the girl so I tried having sex with her without the pills but unfortunately my ED problem came back. It´s so frustrating and embarrassing! It´s hard to have high self esteem with such a problem.

I have been trying to stop PMO but I have not being able to. The longest streak I had was 26 days, but out of those 26 days I edged maybe 20 days. Eventually I relapsed, and I haven´t been able to get any streak going since then. It´s so hard to stop! I have realized PMO is not something I just do for pleasure but it is a habit for me now.

But well, I will keep fighting and I will succeed, I know!! I just had to get this thing out of my chest because it´s killing me. I know I should get some help but it is so embarrassing to tell someone else.

Special thanks to those who created this forum it has been of great help and motivation reading about all of your stories and knowing that I am not alone in this fight. And to those who are fighting to stop PMO I wish you the best and let´s do this guys!! It´s now or never.