Not sure about NoFap

25 days NoFap, and I do feel much better. I've been watching porn and spanking it since high school, so like close to 10 years, not always daily but enough to say that porn and I are old friends. I've had a few not-too-serious relationships during that time, except for my current one: 3 1/2 years, we're engaged and I want her to be the mother of my children. Thing is tho she's in her final year at university and I work full time so we don't always have much time for the good stuff, say once a week, if that (and that's us trying to make time)... so fapping to porn happens on the daily. I always feel like a piece of crap after watching it which is what made me want to stop, also sometimes if she was feeling frisky and I had fapped a few hours before I couldn't always get it up (I work construction and work out hard at the gym so it's physical exhaustion more than ED)

Here's my issue: Since I started nofap my testosterone is through the roof, I'm throwing around weights in the gym like and animal and all I want to do is fuck. And since my fiance is doing school work or sleeping and not putting out I find myself resenting her, which was never an issue before thanks to fapping (she works crazy hard at school, like A+ across the board, so I totally get that she's tired, studying and writing essays is fucking exhausting!)

So what to do I do? Walk around feeling like a animal in rut and resenting the woman I love? Or go back to my old ways and hate myself for it?

 

Thanks for the reply buddy! I needed some encouraging words, I had an easier time quitting smoking lol maybe it's time to get out the boxing gloves again, thats actualy what got me to quit smoking too! I appreciate the support!