well, I sit around and complain that I am lonely, then I turn around and O my self then I wonder why I don't have a friend with benefits. well. I need to put the horse before the cart. I need to stop being self centered first. no other way. so no more O's. of course I love M, every one does. ahh...that's it , I would rather masturbate then be with a women, it's true. what's wrong with that? I will tell you. it is self centered. weather I do it or not, and one of my goals in life is to not be self centered. so here goes no more fantasies, looking at bad pictures on the internet and no more self pleasure.
