Not as serious

Hey everyone, so I'm 17 I want to stop maturbating because I feel miserable and I'm terrified of addiction. I think that I'm starting now is a very good first step because I'm still in the beginning of the addiction. Since puberty I viewed pictures and sometimes videos from time to time but it was never something serious until I actually started maturbating, i was never actually addicted to the whole PMO, it was always either pictures and stuff, or maturbation, it wasn't anything serious at the time but I didn't like it so what I did was I swore to my self to never mastur bate again when I was about 15 and a half. I was a pretty religous muslim at the time so it worked and I stayed by my word for about a year and a half and it wasnt even that hard, it was like i was never addicted, i felt bad for people who PMO and everything was great. Losing some faith and becoming just more of a sad person growing up i lost control over my self earlier this year and masturbated but that didnt actually mean anything because I just did it and stopped again for about a month. Now for the first time I've started incorporating porn into the routine and it feels terrible. This past month or so has really been horrible and I want to stop as soon as possible, not for a day, not for a month, not for a year, I just want to stop. I feel like an idiot not being able to control myself and I just want to get my life back. I cant even remember how it was before this all even though it was just like 2 or 3 months ago.
Sorry for the long intro...

 

I actually started a journal on the under 20 forum
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...-before-it-becomes-to-hard.94596/#post-780386
I just try to be as busy as possible, fill my time by having a tight schedule and remove all kind of triggers from my phone.