Non-Negotiables [2024]

I am just upset about one thing. I didn't deal with someone nicely (again). So until I clear the air with her, my heart will continue to feel upset.

 

Need to wrap up:
Course A
Course C too since we have an assessment deadline DONE
Course T
Project B - Almost wrapped up, just need to write down a few things -
Project P - Same. Just few things to write - DONE
Artsy stuff: 50% left (3hrs) DONE
Tutoring thing… Just one more day to go
3 ongoing books hahaha. Change of plans, I will be completing two books only. That's big progress, alhamdulillah.

Course HL and V aren't exactly courses I need to 'wrap up'. In fact, they will help me get in a good heart and mind space inshallah. So I am taking them off the wrap up list. What else do I need to do after wrapping up everything?

• Read a small book that will be my guide in my journey
• Complete my packing obviously lol
• Message a bunch of people
• Meet my BF
• Make my plan of action
• Make another list
• Course HL
• Course V

 

I FINISHED ONE OF THE BOOKS ALHAMDULILLAH

 

Ended up spending time on another artsy thing LOL

Packing 90 percent done
So… only one book and course A to go
I think I am going to try to sleep early AND wake up early inshallah and do what I need to do inshallah inshallah

 

Forgot to add: Say goodbye here too

 

Just to be clear, not forever lol
Inshallah just a few weeks

 

Okay, I have LOTS to do today. I woke up early ish. Fatigue persists. Stayed in bed for an hour and a half. Made some progress on course A, got done with a task (trying to fix an issue)

God grant me strength and sabr. Plan to get a lot done today inshallah

 

Had a class
Tutored
Made dinner (more like helped with it?)
Kind of tired

 

Kind of feel blank. What was I supposed to do? What should I do rn?
Body feeling tired already and I didn’t even do much. :/ Having a hard time to get up and do something. Just want to sleep but I know I need to finish off some stuff yet I dont feel like getting up. I would have set a nice late night cappuccino as a reward for getting stuff done rn but I overate and feel full alhamdulillah so that’s not tempting

I did my tilawah today in the earlier part of the day (another thing I enjoy doing more than doing it at night). Actually, I have noticed I enjoy doing almost everything during day time more than at night time

I am supposed to have an online class rn but feel like like im in no mood but I really should take it so I don’t feel guulty later on

 

I need to…

Finish reading 80 percent of book 1
Listen to some lectures
Read that small book for my journey
Bullet journal a bit
Ideally should have started making the last

 

I think part of the reason I feel low is also because I should have gotten done with everything by now so I kind of feel defeated

 

I am genuinely really sleepy and not just lazy
Been scrolling on my phone and just want to close me eyes really
Maybe I can take a nap? But what about class? Sigh

 

Okay wait let me be more clear
What do we have left to do?
Take my class rn (yes you will Zee, you are not gonna fall asleep inshallah)
Finish reading 80 percent of book 1
Listen to some lectures
Read that small book for my journey
Bullet journal a bit
Ideally should have started making the list but maybe can do tomorrow

What else what else? Feel so blank lol

 

Omg my teacher isn’t showing up lol

Edit: She didnt show up
Class cancelled hehe

 

I cant. I did project work alhamdulillah its all wrapped up but I cant do anything else

I think stress is making me procrastinate
I still feel tired. Physically.

 

Journaled.

At peace, alhamdulillah

Change of plans…
No more study or reading marathons…
No more wrap ups…

Just focus on what’s coming my way. Everything else can wait. Everything else can be done later.

 

7/3/24 Thurs

1- Did I read Quran? 25/26 Alhamdulillah
Was it 1/4th Juz? 4/25
2- Did I read at least 20 min? 16/26
3- Did I make progress in H? 16/26 alhamdulillah
4- Did I cover Course A? Nope8/26...................yikes
5- Did I declutter my phone? 5/5

 

Reporting here X times a day is all fun and motivating until I have to delete all extra messages
Oh God. Far too manyyyyyy! Why you do this, Zee?

 

8/3/24 Fri

1- Did I read Quran? 26/27 Alhamdulillah
Was it 1/4th Juz? 5/27
2- Did I read at least 20 min? 16/27
3- Did I make progress in H? 16/27
4- Did I cover Course A? 8/27

 

Finally got done with my last bits of homework I needed to do for my journey haha
In no mood to sit and delete extra posts so whatevs!
See ya later, dear thread.