Okay… relax Zee. Stop thinking about your AP. She already said she would delete her account soon and it’s not like you are not in contact with her on whatsapp. I know it still feels weird and sad and alone to be on the site, but you are overfeeling this Stop stressing out about the exams. Just do what you can do. Your idea of getting the perfect result and doing the perfect prep is only making you procrastinate and stressed out The kids come tomorrow, yes. But you can still study inshallah… You can nap in the afternoon, have family time in the evening and study at night inshallah. And inshallah, Wednesday night you spend time planning which will help you clear your head. And I wish there was something we could do about the loneliness but it is what it is.
My heart feels so much better now. I wonder why (you know why, Zee) and I wonder if that’s a good thing or not so good thing (you know the answer to that too). I think it was the coffee I had earlier (Canadian coffee LOL). Shush, Zee. Focus. 7/15 done. Alhamdulillah but I am REALLY short on time. I have roughly 5 hours left.
4/2/24 Sun 1- Did I study? 22/25 Did I meet my study goals? 12/19 2- Did I read Quran? 25/26 Was it 1/4th Juz? 8/15 3- Did I read at least 20 min? 10/21 Nope 4- Did I cover Course T? 0/2 Nope 5/2/24 Mon 1- Did I study? 23/26 Did I meet my study goals? 13/20 2- Did I read Quran? 26/27 Was it 1/4th Juz? I think so 9/16 3- Did I read at least 20 min? 10/23 Nope 4- Did I cover Course T? 0/2 Nope
I would like to think its not depletion of energy but investment And as much as I want to leave, I am not going to. The journey continues, Zee. Your journey is a reflection of your own actions, efforts and principles. The journey continues
6/2/24 Tue 1- Did I study? 24/27 Did I meet my study goals? 14/21 2- Did I read Quran? 27/28 Was it 1/4th Juz? Nope. In fact, tilawah happened super late since my routine was a mess but alhamdulillah 9/17 3- Did I read at least 20 min? 10/24 Nope 4- Did I cover Course T? 0/2 Nope 7/2/24 Wed 1- Did I study? 24/27 Did I meet my study goals? 14/21 ALHAMDULILLAH DONE WITH SEMESTER 1 2- Did I read Quran? 28/29 Was it 1/4th Juz? Nope... 9/18 3- Did I read at least 20 min? 10/24 Nope 4- Did I cover Course T? 0/2 Nope Alhamdulillah... for the things I have learnt in the courses. For exams finishing. For this thread being a source of support. I will be deleting all the extra posts from this thread though just to declutter it a bit.
8/2/24 Thurs 1- Did I study? No need 24/27 Did I meet my study goals? 14/21 2- Did I read Quran? 29/30 Was it 1/4th Juz? Nope... 9/19 3- Did I read at least 20 min? 10/25 Nope 4- Did I cover Course T? 0/2 Nope 9/2/24 Fri 1- Did I study? 24/27 No need Did I meet my study goals? 14/21 2- Did I read Quran? 30/31 ALHAMDULILLAH probably the best I have done in months!!! Was it 1/4th Juz? Nope... 9/20 3- Did I read at least 20 min? 11/26 YES 4- Did I cover Course T? 0/2 Nope
New Non-Negotiables Technically, they aren’t supposed to change. But few of them can be tweaked from time to time. 1- Quran. An absolute must. However, need to be more strict with 1/4th juz. Still, the priority goals is to not lose connection with it. However, I know I can easily manage 1/4th juz until Ramadan. 2- Reading. Oh, I had this strong moment of inspiration and even a vision of myself with respect to this goal. Reading plays a HUGE part in the kind of person I want to become before I turn 30 inshallah. Allahu Akbar, it’s the first time I am actually referring to turning 30 openly lol. I mean… subhanallah, honestly dont feel that old but time cannot be stopped. Anyway, reading game needs to be levelled up. 3- Mission H. A must. At least for the next 20 days it’s a must. 4- Course A. Subhanallah, still have not been able to complete it. Ya rabb. Grant me tawfeeq. Also want to make my friend on here proud of me for this one. Inshallah. Course A NEEDS to be finished before Ramadan. Actually, in the month of February. Two quick realisations: 1- I like the approach of allocating different periods/chunks of time for different goals. Like, instead of thinking that I need to do A, B, C - all projects in 3 months, I would rather finish A in month 1, B in month 2 and C in month 3 It’s kind of similar to prioritising and it may seem like a basic principle to follow but honestly, its not that simple or basic for me. Many times we continue to keep adding things to the list and think, oh I need to do that as well and this as well and that too and we end up with nothing. There’s a certain kind of patience I need to practice by telling myself that Zee, you need to put on hold other things until you finish this one. And part of me responds with no no this is so important, we need to do this too. But listening to that part has never helped. I know some people might be able to juggle everything at once and multi task a lot but I am not one of those AT ALL. Looking at such people also keeps making me feel like I am not doing things right but alhamdulillah, I must understand that I function best differently. 2- oh my goodness I forgot looooool
10/2/24 Sat 1- Did I read Quran? 31/32 Alhamdulillah Was it 1/4th Juz? 9/21 Nope 2- Did I read at least 20 min? 11/27 Yes 3- Did I make progress in H? Starts tomorrow Inshallah 4- Did I cover Course A? Starts tomorrow Inshallah Stats: 10th Jan - 10th Feb 2024 Uni Study: 24/27 Study goals met: 17/27 Alhamdulillah, did a pretty good job on exams Was better in completing study goals than last time and in consistency Semester 1 completeRead Quran: 31/32 1/4th Juz: approx 12/27 Alhamdulillah, amazing progress with this oneRead a Book: 11/27 Alhamdulillah, finished one book in January which was my goalCourses: 4/12 A: 2/7 T: 2/5 No comments lol
11/2/24 Sun 1- Did I read Quran? 1/1 Alhamdulillah Was it 1/4th Juz? 0/1 Nope 2- Did I read at least 20 min? 0/1 3- Did I make progress in H? 0/1 4- Did I cover Course A? 0/1
12/2/24 Mon 1- Did I read Quran? 2/2 Alhamdulillah Was it 1/4th Juz? 0/2 Nope but more than I used to do before. I used to do at least 2 paragraphs before and now, at least 3. Maybe setting the goal of 1/4th juz was a jump as thats almost 4 paragraphs. But inshallah I will get there 2- Did I read at least 20 min? 1/2 3- Did I make progress in H? 1/2 Alhamdulillah!!! 4- Did I cover Course A? 1/2 Alhamdulillah Catching up on following courses: T 0% C 0% M 0% Today was an overall unproductive day but I got the bare minimums done alhamdulillah which is much better than yesterday Alhamdulillah Wondering if I should add waking up early too in the list but then, I just don’t want the list to get longer. Can’t decide :/
13/2/24 Tue 1- Did I read Quran? 3/3 Alhamdulillah Was it 1/4th Juz? 0/3 only 1 paragraph 2- Did I read at least 20 min? 2/3 a lot more than that 3- Did I make progress in H? 2/3 Alhamdulillah!!! 4- Did I cover Course A? 2/3 Alhamdulillah I am trying… Peaceful Morning (No phone in the first hour of waking up): 1/1 Catching up on following courses: T 0% C 0% M 0% Such a busy day - Woke up late, phone battery died so alarms didnt go off at all - Didn’t scroll too much on phone last night Alhamdulillah
I woke up terribly late today and i feel soooo mad about it This wont work. And idc if my routine is off, but I NEED to get stuff done timely before I have too much on my plate So idc about sleep routine or whatever, I am going to stay up late tonight inshallah and finish up some things even if it requires me to post here non-stop like a mad woman
Currently reading 2 books that I must finish by 20th Feb inshallah Just read book 1 Now on to working on course A inshallah in t=10mim
Done with course A. I mean, done with today’s goal in course A. I should be able to complete it in February if I stick to doing it regularly. But if I can accelerate it on some day inshallah (even if that means to compromise on sleep) I will do so. Honestly, I really want to prove myself that I can follow my OWN deadlines without having any external deadline/pressure. I like working hard. I enjoy it. I feel like I need some level of extremity otherwise, I just dont feel satisfied enough and I dont feel like I have done enough. Onto course T.
Last night, I just couldnt fall asleep even though I had a busy day and was tired. So I slept late, had a headache too and just had trouble sleeping. 14/2/24 Wed 1- Did I read Quran? 4/4 Alhamdulillah, bare minimum tho Was it 1/4th Juz? 0/4 2- Did I read at least 20 min? 3/4 3- Did I make progress in H? 2/4 4- Did I cover Course A? 3/4 Alhamdulillah I am trying… Peaceful Morning (No phone in the first hour of waking up): 1/2 Catching up on following courses: T 10 % Alhamdulillah C 0% M 0% - Woke up super late - Was in a bad mood for the most part - Did creative stuff though… I think I have finally found my art thing - And Zee, you feel good after covering up course T yeah? After putting in effort and being productive… remember this feeling tomorrow inshallah. Alhamdulillah
Oh I am so tired lol Made some solid progress in mission H and reached a mini-milestone too alhamdulillah I just need to… do some tilawah and… course A… was hoping to get some more reading done… and catch up on course T… and … oh goodness I am tired like physically tired. I think it’s the monthlies kicking in :/ Often feel physically exhausted around this time Should ai just sleep?
15/2/24 Thurs 1- Did I read Quran? 5/5 Alhamdulillah, bare minimum tho Was it 1/4th Juz? 0/5 2- Did I read at least 20 min? 4/5 3- Did I make progress in H? 3/5 Yes Alhamdulillah!! Reached a mini milestone 4- Did I cover Course A? 3/5 I am trying… Peaceful Morning (No phone in the first hour of waking up): 1/3 Catching up on following courses: T 10 % C 0% M 0% Did not cover any courses. Bad, I know. I did my tilawah, some embroidery, a little bit of project work and now I am done. I cooked a yummy dinner for myself and most of my time was gone in tutoring and cooking which is quite surprising. But it is what it is. Alhamdulillah productive day. Been mindful of my time.
