Day 2: No porn, Mock GCSEs have started for me and the time I got from Nofap has been a huge benefit for revision.
Day 0: Relapse, Returning to old habits again. New plan needed to stop relapse. Tougher anti-porn blockers needed, more revision, Maybe block Youtube after 7pm-ish since most relapses are at night. But this will interfere with my revision.
Day 2: No Porn, More revision. I've been thinking about Nofap and how I don't have a "Cause" to defeat Porn. Proving to myself that can do it doesn't cut it and something for achievable and specific like how at the start of my Nofap journey, I wanted a girlfriend. However, since I do not have the time, effort, confidence and energy to consider it, I've given up on dating for a while and now I struggle to fight against Porn. When I do get an urge, I literally know what I'm doing is wrong and will ruin my life. But Porn doesn't care and I'm helpless as I fail to another Urge. I can't give up on Nofap because my confidence will burn and if I continue, My confidence will also struggle after relapses but with a slight chance of greatness. Maybe the true purpose of Nofap isn't the magical "semen retention" but simply the time I gain to spend on my other passions. Instead of spending time on the weak pleasures like Porn, I must spend it on the higher pleasures like Art and Education.
Day 0: Relapse. One of the most effective strategies for me is to get rid of tissues and toilet paper and only use handkerchiefs. Unfortunately, I found some tissues in my bedroom and it went from a Porn relapse to an MO relapse.
Applying for colleges again today. All restrictions removed so that they can be done. Praying that a relapse doesn't occur again.
Day 0: Whoops, PMO again. This is the BIG issue for me and porn. I can't lift any restrictions or else I will relapse. This means I will have to deal with Porn blockers and no social media for the rest of my life. Theoretically, this is good as I can focus on my life but actually, I need to communicate with friends and I need the internet for studying. Worst of all, I am going to start college in September next year and one of my kinks has been Spoiler: Suggestive topics College Girls/ Sluts and my porn-addicted brain will go crazy for those 2 years and I know for certain that I won't get any relationships since I don't want a repeat of the last one so I'm going to get further addicted to Porn to satisfy this need. I must defeat Porn quickly before they can organise a stronger resistance.
Day 1: No porn, weak urges. Strong considerations to give up again. I fear that if I do surrender then I will eventually use my art skills to make a sex doll. I've considered it for months but since I'm doing Nofap, I've never had an urge strong enough to commit and build something so ridiculous but something that will ruin my life for good. I'm in the war too deep, It's too late for me to turn around and give up.
Day 0: Relapse again! Still haven't reinstalled blockers as Revision and college applications are ongoing. Motivation for Nofap has crumbled and I've now returned to levels of Masturbation not seen since March. I need an objective that I can be passionate for. "Revising more" "More time" "Sexual transmutational energy" isn't helpful when an urge only cares about the present. I can't do another crush since it lasted 16 months and was a total failure. The anniversary is actually in 6 days so I should commemorate it.
Day 1: No porn, extensions reinstalled. First day motivation boost but the next few days will be horrible.
Day 0: Relapse. I'm not even aroused or gain urges any more. My brain now suggests "does this method lead to porn?" and I reluctantly follow and find Porn. I then realise that a pack of tissues in my blazer pocket will be suitable and use them to ejaculate into. This is going to be impossible to fight unless I have a true motive for Nofap. I literally can't defeat my curiosity and if I can, I will eventually relapse within a few weeks. I want to give up on Nofap but another part of my brain fights back with a hope of prosperity with Nofap. New plan: I will refrain from discussing anything sexual, any relationships, any dates, my past crush and any ideas or actions that I deem sexual or "gay" at school. Unfortunately, being surrounded by hundreds of porn addicts is going to be a difficult issue.
Day 1: No porn, No urges. I'm starting to receive my mock GCSE results and I've been achieved high grades and with 5 months to go, I'm feeling destined to achieve these targets. These results are only good because of my revision which had a lot more time to spare with NoFap. I'm thankful that it has helped me academically.
Bro stay strong and refocus into your main objective. What is your main motivation to start that journey? You made it 43 days without O, now you need to get away from porn as long as possible. You made a lot of progress already, don't fall into self-loathing thinking its over now anyway. You didn't fail you just missed a step and lost balance it happens. Maybe start with a easier streak like 3 days in a row no PMO to begin with?
Thank you for the reply! I'm started Nofap to get a girlfriend but the relationship failed when I got addicted to Porn again. I'm going to follow your advice. I'll try to make it to Wednesday. If I succeed, I'll extend it by 2 days. I should remain more positive and celebrate every day that doesn't have PMO.
Day 1: No porn, extra revision, 2 year anniversary of my crush today. Although it changed my life forever, it made me more self-aware and possibly prevented decades of Porn addiction or extremely violent porn.
Day 2: No Porn, minor urges but ignored them before they grew. Let's get to Wednesday and I would have made a huge improvement in self-control.
