New Year, New Me?

Hi all,
I am really struggling hence why I am here. My sexual behaviour is somewhat problematic. I feel I have fallen back to my old habit of a teenager without the care in the world once indulging into PMO.
I have read the Gary Wilson book (not all) at the same time as seeing a counsellor which helped. I have also been to SAA.
I am struggling mentally at the moment and need to stop. My intention is for when the new year comes to go again (Oh how many times I have been here before). I don't know what I am searching for creating this thread. I am planning to go No PMO until the new year, and after that continue. I know how difficult this is, I have stopped before when I seen the counsellor for 6 months. The best period in my life. I am open to help and suggestions. I will post here tomorrow at approx 9pm UK time for an update on how my day has gone. Look forward to some support.

 

Hello!

Thank you for your encouragement, lets do this!

 

Relapsed! Already. Friday is a new day.

 

Another miserable day of relapse.

 

Hey, Thank you for your kind words of encouragement.

Day 1.

 

Day 2 complete. Watched P and some edging days 1 and 2. However no O. I guess thats a start. Still feel like a failure, no motivation!!

 

Hi all,

many thanks for all your encouragement. I agree that my mindset has changed, and i need to remember that prior to getting my head in the right place I was indulging without a care in the world.
After reading the messages, i agree it’s important to know what it is, for me its P. Theres times where i have watched it for the sake of it! I need to do small achievable goals as thats what got me to 6 months Hardmode. Today i have watched P, but then switched it off, as i didn’t wanna O due to the feeling of guilt and sorrow.
Tomorrow brings a new day. My goal is to go the whole day without PMO.
I know what i need to do, change my morning routine and to keep busy at work as i had a really unproductive day due to the blues of being back from my annual leave.
Thanks again all. This is really helping me to reflect.

 

Hi all,
As I prepare to sleep, spare a thought for me tomorrow! I don’t want to let my self down. God bless all!

 

Hi all,

This morning i avoided the habit of watching P, not looked all day and have avoided any leading images/videos which are semi explicit. I have faith that i will reach 24 hours with no PMO.
Just wanted to share it, for myself to reflect as i was in a rut. Not getting to ahead of myself but its a start atleast!

 

Day 2 completed no pmo! I know I have been here before but its nice to reflect on the achievement. Thanks for all the replies as it helps me stay strong. I don’t even know you all, but i feel like i owe you guys something for encouraging me! So thank you!!!

 

I have found walking to be a great tool. It kills urges especially if you walk in the evening after work. Its hard at time due to the weather but it helps relax the body! Tiring it out to sleep. Also i find it a form of meditation! We have all got this!

 

Day 4 no pmo. Feeling good and it been slightly easy, as i feel not in the mood! Don’t know if i am on a flat line or not?!

 

Hi all, day 8 no PMO. Well i say no PMO, but have watched P only to turn it off because i remind myself i am better than this. Its a long way from how i was feeling before i started this, so i guess it is a good thing. I know its not ideal to even switch on P for a brief moment of 2-3 moments before switching it off. I am hoping having cut out the MO, i will cut out the P. I know for myself they are all interlinked so i need to refrain from all. Will see how this week goes with No PMO, its just the boredom that leads me to looking at P before shutting it down after 2-3 mins. I have been trying to go for a walk however the weather is not great. Walking is the only thing which helps but i am sure i can find another interest.