New to no fab

Hi, I don’t really know where to start.
I guess I’ll start when it started I remember when I saw my first porn I was 5 maybe 6, it was back in 2005 or 6, I was flipping through tv channels looking for something to watch like any kid whos just bored and looking for entertainment than out of nowhere they was these two woman eating each other’s out and I was like omg wtf is that lol I didn’t know woman can do that after that I don’t really remember much lol.
Form this point things are gonna get a bit dark so this a little warning for yall.

Form what I believe contributed my porn addiction when I was 7 I was sexually assaulted by my sister I was playing in my room with my toy cars than my sister asked me to fallow her to my parents closet she take off my pants and started to put her mouth on my…. You know. when she was done she told me to not tell my parents saying if I do they I’ll get mad at me and I believed her I didn’t know any better I was 7… and it didn’t stoped form there whenever
My parents left us alone she would be on top of me and started grinding she also take her shirt off and forcing her beast on my face. For a good 6 years she didn’t do anything to me until I was 13. I was playing Pokemon black oh and I was alone in the house with my sister she came in to my room she’s sitting next to me she puts her foot on my penis I was just sitting there scared all of those memories of her doing things to me came to me all at ones the only words I could say was stop she stopped she ran out of the room.
So yea, sorry if this is dark and sorry if I misspelled some words I’m dyslexic.