New member. Day 6

Hi everyone, I came across nofap a week ago and thought I'd try giving up porn and masturbation for a month.
I was motivated by the thought that maybe porn was one of the reasons I've been single for years despite having quite an active social life within the sport I play. I thought maybe me watching porn was giving me a creepy porn vibe which make people wary of dating me. I also thought it might be linked to my poor control with spending.
I am 46 and been watching porn since my 20s.
The first 5 days of no PMO were easy. Today and to some extent last night are hell! I am desperate to watch porn and wank and keep asking myself why I'm doing this. porn doesn't affect me in any noticeable way with work, friends or family and I play lots of sports and have a healthy lifestyle. I just thought I'd try nofap to see if it gets me dating again. I don't understand why I'm so desperate to wank now with porn on.
I keep thinking about some porn scenes I saw before nofap and have been going online looking at them but not touching myself- trying to put myself off them but instead the porn looks 10000000x better than ever. This is hell.

 

thanks. I feel bad for watching P yesterday but feel good for not touching myself. my goal is no porn masturbation. Stayed up late to make sure I was properly tired in bed and therefore fell asleep quickly. Woke up today and feel better. Odd feeling of being spaced out but not unpleasant. tonight might be another trigger but feel stronger.