New Levels of Isolation.. In certain seasons in life, do we even need friends?

I'm in a time of reflection, thinking about how far The Most High has brought me. I've never really "fit in" for my whole life, but lately I've been really feeling like a stranger here. I know Scripture tells us about being seperate and Set-Apart, but this really hits different. It's like I can't relate to anyone, except the fellowship groups I'm part of online, and even there I feel ignored and alone sometimes. The Most High is pretty much the only one that makes me truly happy, everything else in this world is empty and vain to me.
More recently, I've been even feeling that I don't want friends. Maybe it's because of past hurt, burnout/exhaustion, or lack of Godly people around me. I love to give and serve, and it seems people take advantage and don't really care to reciprocate.

Either way, there's a lot to learn in periods of isolation. I'd be lying if i said I never got lonely or felt sad, because I do, but the Most High is my portion. I stay focused on working (Maybe I work too hard haha), and I think of Psalm 23:1. It's getting me closer to Him, so His Will be done.

Anyone else feel this way?

I read through this plan and it was encouraging, here's a link for anyone else who's interested:
https://www.bible.com/reading-plans/27143-christian-loneliness

Thank you for reading if you made it this far, just had to vent my feelings somewhere. Shalom

 

@Wilderness Wanderer @Tao Jones Thank you so much for your responses, they're really appreciated. This has never really bothered me until now, and lately I've been feeling really sad and heavy about. I can only be stong for so long until I have to go to The Most High for strength. I feel bad for feeling this way, and wish I didn't have this desire at all because it feels like I'm being ungrateful.

This is a good idea. I'll have to find another church home first though, because most of the groups I've encountered don't align with Scripture, or didn't make me feel welcome.

 

I feel like isolation is just something I need to get used to, as I have been pretty much most of my life, I'venever got in anywhere. Loke the Scriptures say, we're not of the world, we're just passing through. I've been adjusting well lately, I just want these desires for marriage and companionship to go away, becauw they still get in the way a bit. I understand those are natural desires, but I'm trying to die to myself and all my desires. I don't want to think about anything that God doesn't have planned

 

Not isolation necessarily, but I've never really had friends or people I could fit in with, or trust besides my small family