New here - Taking the Challenge

I am taking the challenge. My goal is complete celibacy until marriage. I had not looked at porn for years, but relapsed a few days ago. Edging and masturbation has been an ongoing issue. I almost always abstain during the day, but at night, while I'm half asleep I have a pattern of succumbing to temptation. In the last year I have struggled with intense insomnia, which relates to failing more frequently. The relapse into pornography after years of freedom is what brought about joining this forum.

I have read a number of books on the subject and tried a number of methods to live a completely celibate life, including online accountability, accountability partners in real life (I rarely relapse without confessing to a friend), and for a period of time even hypersexuality medication (not recommended). Over the years success has been steadily increasing.

I am using this forum as a place to focus, learn, and accumulate will-power. I will be journaling daily up until the 17th when I go to Africa for a couple weeks and I won't have internet access. I will re-evaluate how formally I engage in the challenge here when I return.